I’m an artist and I’m sensitive about my shit.
– Erykah Badu
Source: CliqueTv, Overlay- Yours Truly.
Why don’t you blog more often? Great question. Here’s the long and short of it… I’m broke.
As an avid reader and media consumer, I’m over saturated with beautiful photos, impressive templates/layouts, curated collections of awesomeness. And my work just did not measure up. I was often frustrated with my poor attempts to measure up to bloggers, YouTubers, artists, influencers, and many other Creatives that made lifestyle content for a living. I was inspired to be my inspiration. Somehow mimicking my inspiration resulted in a cheap, knock-off version of “everybody else” and I wasn’t impressed.
I was comparing my chapter one to their book 3 in the Wonderful World of XYZ blogger series. I rushed the process and because of that dissatisfaction I did not create. The dryness on my blog was direct reflection to the Sahara of creativity that encompassed me. While I was comparing myself to others, I realized the grass was defiantly greener on the other side. Not because these individuals had all the gadgets, tools, resources, and teams of people to help them—no it was green because they watered it (Big Sean’s verse in “ As Long As You Love Me”).
To go at it, day after day. To be dedicated and committed to what you produced. Tomorrow I will be better than I am today; however, I still love who I am now, in this moment.
The distance between where I currently am and where I want to be seems a bit daunting. I’m learning to trust the process and enjoy the struggle. There’s no need to fast forward to the Glo Up. The beauty is in the come-up.